I never choose whenever I know I can have both. But for the first time ever, I actually have to make a choice. Okay, let’s slow down. It’s not as bad as I’m making it sound like.
Here’s the deal: I got accepted to a course (about fish) that I really want to attend. During this course, there is a field trip to a research station that I fell in love with when I was there 2005/2006. The field trip isn’t long, just 2.5 days. What’s bothering me is that I have to leave my little family for that long. I want to take them with me, but I’m not sure that is possible or even if the Dutchman wants to (we haven’t talked about this yet, I’m still at university). I won’t fail the course if I don’t go, but I’ll have to compensate. I really wanna go, but I also really don’t want to be that far away from my precious family.
Trying to build my career and having a family at the same time just got a little hard. Maybe I need to get out of my comfort zone and see what’s there. Or maybe I need to stay. I don’t know yet. I do know that just leaving for university every day hurts my mommy heart far more than I ever expected. So what’ll 2.5 days gonna do to it?
//c_Cae; has some serious thinking to do…