I just got off my last meeting of today, and it seems like I’ll have two side-projects along with the Master’s thesis. It feels good, but it also occurred to me that I might be overloading myself with work to forget the anniversary of my grandmother’s passing. Still, it has been a good day. I’ve had two dips today where I only want to sink into a couch and be invisible for a little while.
But then I remembered that life will only pass me by if I do so. Yes, grieving is hard, but it’ll fade as this year has proven. It’ll never go away, and I’m very aware that I will carry it with me for the rest of my life. But it’s a comfort that it fades, that way, it’ll leave more space for me to learn new things.
Anyway, my meeting was great. For one of the side-projects, I’ll call them minis from now on, I’ll be working with an invasive algae that produces a slime when they’re disrupted. Very interesting, and it fires me up just knowing it’s invasive. For the other mini, I’ll just be handling data whenever my schedule allows it. I’ll have a 2h introductory meeting whenever people find the time. I get really excited, but now I have to convince myself that I shouldn’t be seeking onto a few more minis for now. I have to learn to settle, or else Zoe will remember me as a superbusy mom that doesn’t pay attention to her. Besides, I’ll be taking two extra classes next year, too. I’m pretty sure I’m insane now, haha.
//c_Cae; if you don’t work for your dream, someone else will hire you to make theirs come true…