It’s been a little over 18 months since I joined Twitch. I first had no interest in it as I didn’t really understand what it was all about. Then I came across streamers who played alone and with their communities and noticed how great that interaction was. Suddenly, I found myself in chats where people were super-friendly about the gameplay, talked about everything possible and joked about whatever made people laugh. It had me intrigued on how much fun Twitch was. Occasionally, there would be people that would troll and toss around stupid remarks, trying to turn the friendly community into a mob but they always failed. I came to fall in love with channels that played games I would never play myself. I found streamers that were amazing people in every single way, trying to to chip in to change the world for the better even if it meant just making one person smile.
I first stumbled upon a Minecraft streamer and to be honest, Minecraft is good in many ways but to me it is incredibly boring. Still, this streamer had my attention and I ended up supporting this streamer in every way I could. In his community, I found many like-minded people who I today call friends.
Later, I ventured out to find new streamers and I did. I found amazing streamers that I had so much in common with. It somehow made me feel satisfied in a way the life at university never did. Don’t get me wrong, avid readers of this blog will know that I absolutely loved university life but it lacked something that made up a large part of my teenage years that still remain today. I have brought up games at university but no one really understood what I meant. On Twitch, this was different. I met academics that were similar to me and I also met people outside of academia that understood academia as well as they understood games.
The mentality of these people that I have had the luck to meet online is incredible. All of those who I call friends wish nothing but success upon whoever they may meet. All of them appreciate each other like it was meant to. On Twitch, I have met people to talked others out of suicide and helped others relocate to safer places, among other things. I think this kind of appreciation is a very rare thing to find, especially on the internet but even in this world. Today, we experience a different kind of life as we’re constantly bombarded by sad news from all over the world. It makes us believe that there is an overwhelming amount of bad things that are happening in the world. It’s not true of course, news reaches us easier today than it ever has in our history.
So, to everyone who I met on Twitch:
I appreciate you and I value your presence immensely. I’m lucky to have met all of you and I really can’t wait to meet you in person. I can’t really express in words how much I appreciate all of you, but you know what I mean. Thanks to you, I’ve ventured out of my comfort zones faster than ever and it feels great. Thanks to you, I can be a part of your communities and help you bring smiles to people. Oh, and if you’re unsure if you’re included in this bunch of friends, you are. Here’s to online friendships o/
//c_Cae; is now also a Twitch affiliate! Yay~
I don’t know where to begin. I first wanted to tweet about it, but I quickly realized that 140 characters doesn’t cut it. I could use TwitLonger, but that’d end up as a blog post so I might as well do it here. Sad post incoming, you have been warned.
Today, the world lost yet another amazing voice. Chester Bennington had, to me, a very special voice and amazing songwriting skills. Linkin Park has always been special to me, They were the band who delivered song upon song that I could 110% relate to. Every single song spoke to me one way or the other. I knew what people around me said about the band. They’re horrible, how can you listen to that sh*t?
Thing was, they weren’t sh*t in my ears. To me their music was the only thing I could relate to in a time of my life where darkness was all over the place. Their music made me think and feel that there is light in this world, that there are things in this life worth fighting for. To me, they were amazing. Of all the band members, Chester was the one that spoke to me most. His past of being abused spoke the loudest, although the drug use also hit a bit too close to home (to clarify, I have never used but I have lost several family members to ODs). He was my first “singer of a rockband” crush. As a teenager, the band seemed like superheroes to me. They had overcome things of their pasts and were doing something that they loved. In return, millions of fans cheered them on. Sadly, depression took Chester’s voice from us. A voice that will be missed, but never forgotten. I wish the lines If I just let go, I’d be set free wasn’t echoing in my head.
To be honest, I do not know where this post is heading but I feel I need to write things down. It’ll help, I know. I know some might still think that it’s stupid to still like such a band as Linkin Park and not be refined in my music taste, and although I don’t listen to them as much as I used to, they still mean something to me. Our pasts build the foundation of our lives on which the lucky few can build their future on.
My deepest condolences to Chester’s family, the band and everyone who ever felt that Chester touched their lives. We’re never alone, never forget that.
//c_Cae; somewhere out there, there is someone that cares for you deeply.
It has been a great while since I last posted here. The only reason to that is simply because I was exhausted. After the previous post, I took a solid four weeks to tend to myself. It was the only thing I did whenever I had some free time. I caught up on a few TV series, looked up to the sky and admired the clouds, took naps whenever I wanted and only met with people that had zero expectations of me. It felt great. After that, I rested some more.
As some may know, I celebrated my birthday a little over a week ago. I got everything I ever asked for: great food and great company. On the day itself, we had a simple dinner at my mom’s and I was even served cake (chocolate mousse in case anyone wondered) and Zoe even sang for me. That was the best part. The Friday that followed, I had arranged a dinner with some close friends. We went to a restaurant that fused Mexican with Korean food and it was marvelous. I had a great time and even though I did not ask for gifts, my friends came with them. They know I never want anything other than having a great time with them. Still, they brought me flowers, cute little things like band aids with fish motif, and a Bluetooth speaker. These friends are worth more than their weights in gold, and even though we rarely meet, we remain the same as the last time we met. I love you guys, and I hope you know that.
On a different note, I recently decided to step out of my comfort zone in gaming. Since I started playing video games, I have stuck to role-playing and puzzle games (read Final Fantasy and Tetris). I figured if I wanted to grow as a gamer, and especially if I wanna be able to broadcast a variety of games, I also have to play a variety of games. Thus, when I got my new computer, I hesitated a little bit but ended up buying a first-person shooter game. Now let me tell you how good my aim is. It is about as good as I would most likely miss whatever is in front of me. I didn’t expect to play even at the lowest level, but to my surprise, I learned fast and I actually play decently. Surely, I have a lot to improve at but that’s why we step out of that comfort zone right?
//c_Cae; it’s true what they say, growth happens outside of your comfort zone even if stepping out is intimidating.